How do i know whether people heart's was an open or a close door?
I felt everyting wasn't right... but i'm speechless... :X

What must i do to express my words out? Well, although i tried and learnt how to be positive but one's have its limit. I know that i can go much more beyond, but can anyone sees that i'm trying really hard. It makes me feel sad when people did somethings which i can be really sensitive about. I might try to change, but what i inherit in my genes can't. Some things are just natural, if i'm naturally born like that i can niether hide nor change... I felt like taking off my mask. Who i am? who i really was? i really do not have a cule to it anymore. I don't even understand myself, then how to i open up my door to let people know me/ communicate with me.

I felt so sorry, i don't wish to be like this...